"CloSe To HeARt.." :\

"Wat 2 say abt ma "Utman".....
while listening his guitar derz alwayz smthng magical.. "

"He haz alloted a name az "utman"
and has been designated az ma 'personal Dushman'..." 

"Hez heart iz az clear az a transparent glass......
and his choice....itz juz too A-class..." 

"Hez seriously a swthrt..... 
n i noe v guyz'll nvr b apart..... " 

"I luv d way he givz me all dose crazy names..... 
with tym our frnship'll into a luvely flame..... 

"His style n lukz goes wid the trend...
and no doubt u'll b provd az the bst 'Boifrnd'...."

"Hez d one who cares for all.......
and alwayz starts wid "bol jaaneman" wen he receives ma call.." 

"He haz a crazy likng of listng d sund of train...
n luvz 2 play basketball evn in xtreme rain.... " 

"He ownz an xtremely crazy "man"(hindi wala)
which at any tym cn feel lyk having fun.... " 

"He believes in funda of ishq-vishq pyar-vyar.....
n at evry tragedy he say.... 'chot ho gayi yaaaaaaaaar' " 

"Gymng iz hiz passion.....
and can make trend of anythng which iz out of fashion...." 

"WE hav a same lyking fr GUITAR...
and hez alwayz ready 2 help no mattr frm hoe far....... " 

"He nvr comb his hair. 
n sayz luv of frndship iz in d air... " 

"He iz too good in xpressing hiz feelingz....
and haz an uncnditional luv fr all hiz Darlingz...... " 

"For me he haz alwayz been undrstandng,caring, friendly n more...
and max. tym remainz confused n sayz 'may b, I m nt sure...."

"Hez sm1 I'll nvr frget......
n in share market i bet he'll hav d highest rate..."

"when thingz'll go wrng 'n' u'll turn blue........
Trust me DeAr.....!! I'll alwayzz b der fr u.... " 

Alone..

She walks on the street,
looking at the people in love,
Smiling at those holding hands,those kisses on the lips

She knows she is lonely,
She knows there is no one around,
to call her own,
to give him everything she got

She smiles because she knows,
She wont vow down,she wont compromise,
She wont be with someone who cant treat her right,
its better to have no one to share her joy,
than to have someone who will make her cry,
She walk on the street alone,
With smile on her lips and head held high..

I'm Alone... :\

                                                                                                                                                                           I'm hurt this time.

                                                       I don't want to cry for the way I
                                                       feel inside.
                                                       I just want someone to hold me...
                                                       I'm alone in the dark, please try to
                                                       find me.
                                                       If no one cares, I don't see a point
                                                       to go on.
                                                       Anyone find me! Anyone care!

                                                       I feel unheard and unseen.
                                                       Depressed and weak.
                                                       No one cares and yet I'm always
                                                       the sorry one.

                                                       Someone find me! I'm scared.
                                                       I m dere for evryone,but i guess in
                                                       the end,
                                                       There is No1 for me.

                                                       Please hold me until it all ends.
                                                      Just hold me that’s all I want.
                                                       I don't want to be alone in the
                                                      dark.

                                                      Just hold me as I start to disappear
                                                       from the light.
                                                      Just hold me as I start to cry.
                                                      Just hold me so I wont be alone
                                                       inside.
                                                      Just hold me so I don't do
                                                       something wrong.
                                                      Just hold me so tight, that for a
                                                      moment I could feel the light.  :'(

"Thank Uhh So much..."

" Thank uhh so much......
 for making me realize where do I stand in ur life...."  :\

"Thank uhh so much.....
 for making me understand dat nthngz permanent...." :\

"Thank uhh so much.....
 for making me realize that i shouldn't hav been so dedicated towards uhh.." :'(

"Thank uhh so much...
 for making me realize that i deserve this only....or may be evn worse..." :\

"Thank uhh so much....
 for making me realize that we'll last soon Utkarsh...." :'(

"Thank uhh so much...
 for spoiling things....." :\

"Thank uhh so much...
 for making me realize that 'Love' is not meant for me...." :'(

"Thank uhh so much....
 for making me realize that I have no rite to be happie...." :\

"Thank uhh so much...
 for making me realize that my love is not worth showing anymore..." :\

"Thank uhh.....Thank uhh so very much....
for proving everyone rite who said that i gave a too much of importance to uhh...." :'(



Thank Uhhhh.....
P.s. - Its all over from ma side.....m sorry.
I m sorry.........I give up.No more efforts now.....
Do whatever uhh feel lyk....
If uhh can do somethng evn worse den dis.......Go for it..
Stay Happie... Thats all i want..

Why Always Me..?

"Why always Lyf  Has to be so unfare....?

Why ma happiness in dis world is so Rare....?

Why can't things in ma lyf can't go smooth...?

Why a small thing is hurting so much juz like the truth...?

I can't take dis pain anymore....

I m tired of complaining....

I m tired of wailing....

I cant always be so understanding..

I too hav A heart yaaaaaaaaaaar.... :\

I too feel being Hurted...

It Hurts to knw tat once uhh easily understood ma silence bt today uh deny to understand ma spoken words evn...

It pinches....

Tears rolling down ma cheeks...

Tearing me apart....

Crying lyk hell....

juz LIKE A retard....

Why always it is me who has to understand...?

NO.....

NOT Again This Tym....

Call me CRAZY,call me FREAKY,CALL ME STTUBORN,call me a TROUBLE or wat evr else u want.....

But u hav no idea how badly it HAUNTS...

I m Broken....

I m shatterd...

I m lost.....

May be dis is wat i deserve.....coz i relyd too much on others...

Coz i lived too much in ma fantasy world...

May b it was all ma mistake only...

BUT Now I dnt Need Anyone Anymore... :\

Its Better for me to be  "ALONE".... :( "

"BUT Still...."

"They fight about a lot of things, but they love all of the same music..
she’s immature , but he accepts her silliness...
she is so innocent..but he is smart and tricky but much caring about his "best friend"..
she is a little bit emotional always thinks by heart but he is well-balanced and think always by brain….
Sometimes he is very much irritating but she loves to get irritate by him silently..
She thought she win all the fight between them…he accept it secretly coz he loves to  loose by her willingly....
They are totally opposite of nature...
 
They both say they hate each other, but secretly are happy when people tell them that they would make a good couple....
Sometimes they both quarrel with each other so badly…
but within few time they surrender to each other avoiding their egos...
They act like they’re nothing more than friends, but everyone knows otherwise...
When people ask, they say they don’t like each other, but still hope that the other one is lying..
They think they are best friend of each other and they are much happy with this relationship..No love can enter between them to ruin their friendship..




"Some Relationships Are like Tom And Jerry
They Irritate Each Other
They Tease Each Other
But They Still Can’t Live Without Each Other...."



"They are completely different,
Though they’re absolutely perfect for each
other. But…..Both of them know that they care for each other very much…

But still they are not lovers…   "

I Wont Complain :\

❝ I get mad over the smallest reasons. I know I over-analyze everything.

I do feel a sense of jealousy when I see you talking to someone who has more to offer.

I evrytym get sad at the thought of ever losing you.

I start pointless arguments and fights, just to see if you care enough to stick around.


I often say things that I later regret.

I jus want to know whethr you care as much as I do.

It’s because I'm girls, and I need to be reassured from time to time ❞

P.S. -- This is how i m jaaaaaaaaan..... Evrythng iz not az easy az uh think babie...
 I cnt always think d way uh want me to think... :\
bt it's ok now...
i wont say nythng now...
I wont complain...
I promise..!  :)

"Forever Mine.. "

" Hey Uhh....
 Yes Uhhh..!!! 
 Guess What..?
 " I lOve You <3"
 I know I Have told uhh This Infinite times..
 But I never told enough How Much I Love Uhh ..
 I lOve Everything about uhh..
 


 Ur » Voice « Which makes my heart beat faster n Slower at same time...  The way uh call me » Babie « <3 
 Ur >>Hugs << The way uh cover me in ur Arms.....n i feel so secure... <3 <3
 Ur >>Kisses<< The way ur lips gently brushes mine.....n i feel so complete... ^_^
 Ur>>Texts<< Which makes me know that uh too miss me d way i do.. :D
 Ur>>Calls<< Which shows me that I m an imp. part of ur day.. :)



                              I just can't describe d feeling…
                             You’re the one I run to .... The One I Belong to...
                             You're the one I want for life. .
                             You’re Still D One... " n "
                             You will b D One…
                             Forever Mine.. <3 <3 <3.....

"I Wrote A Story..."

I  

"I wrote a story while I was missing uhh...
Where i luvd uh n uhh luvd me too...

Though on paper ,uh took ma heart

Unlike reality where v r still apart...
And ma heart is still on d same track...
Juz keep on analyzing where did i lack..?
Evn if uh dont....I want uh to know
That i'll never let our memories go.. "

In Love... ^_^

"I hope uh understand how much uh mean to me n how much " I Love
 You"....Even If m having a terrible day....seeing uh happie,seeing uh
 smile and laugh,makes me feel a lil better.Days that we spend together,
 even if we dont do anything other den lay in bed n talking,watching
 movies,having tickle fights, compose some of ma fav memories...
 Sometyms I need to remind myself to take a step back and realize how
 damn lucky am I to have all this ^_^....  After evrythng that happened and
 evrythng tat v have gone through I would never imagine making it dis
 far....

<3 So much in love.... <3

Please.... :(

Its Hurting... :\

m confused...
m worried...
m lost.....
m scared...
m broke...
m missing...



M not lyking dis feeling...
u hav no idea about wat m i dealing... :\

Ma evry dream iz fading...
D pain wid in me is embeding....

I dnt want to go away from uh....
 Why is dis happening i hav no clue.. :(

It'll b wrong if i'l blame uh for evrythng..
Coz it waz meant to b broken....aftral it waz a dream... :\

Thingz use to b very magical....
Der waz nthng at all lyk being logical...

I heard tat memories leave a huge impact...
In simple words..."I Love You".... sorry if m being very direct...

Please try n undrstant d way i m feeling...
All dose special feelings are leaving... :(

I dnt noe where d thngz are getting wrong...
Although m tryng ma best to b strong...

Emotions are vry fragile...juz lyk Dove..
Please honey once again....Make me fall in LOVE.. :'(

"Just once.."

"Run Your Finger Through Ma Soul....

For Once....Just Once...Feel Xzactly What I FEEL...Believe What I BELIEVE...Perceive As I PERCEIVE...Look...Experience...Examine..And for ONce....JUST ONCE..    UNDERSTAND...."

It hurts yaaaaaaaaar......Why dont uh understand..? :(

"Wen uh dnt hav tym fr her....someone else iz spendng al his tym juz to make her feel ok..

Wen uh behave rudely wid her....some1 else iz doing all d efforts to fix her mood...

Wen uh keep buzi urself wid ur frndz,even wen she says shez missng uh....smone else iz not missng evn a single chance to make her feel special..

Wen uh keep on shoutng n blamng her juz coz she thinkz too much about ur relation....someone else iz tryng 2 cheer her up by giving new memories to think upon...

she'll alwayz stick to uhh evn if she knows she deserve smone bttr.....bt if once she make up her mind , hold her emotions tite n moves on....dnt blame her for being stone hearted coz u hav no clue wat haz she gone through....
Value her....else u'll regret once shez gone..

                                 

I love Uhhh..!!

I don't know what to say...
i don't know how to stay close to you..
i dont know how to say those special word to u..
you had become part of my life..
i don't know how to forget you.. 
you think that there is no future for us together..
i dont care you love me or not..
the thing i know is that I Love You very much..
the thing now left to me is your happiness..
i will stay away from you forever....

Broke...

The teardrops run down,
And fall off ma nose.
I cry in dark corners,
Where nobody goes.
You can follow the tracks,
From ma eyes to my chin,
Time upon time,
Of letting them win.
And ma eyes tell a story,
Of anger and pain,
You think that I m happy,
But just look again.
And scars of my pain,
Hidden under my clothes,
Are a road map to places,
That nobody knows.
My smile is now painted,
I m a master of disguise,
And you can see it all,
Just look into my eyes.." </3

"An iMpOsSiBlE WiSh...." :\

"Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?

Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?

You fall deeper with each passing day,

But try to hide it in every possible way.

He's only a friend, and nothing else

That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.

You keep on saying he's just a bud

But deep inside, you're falling in love.

You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,

But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.

A simple glance turns into a stare

But you pretend that you don't care.

It's "not right" for you two to be.

Is that why you hide it so no one can see?

But how long will you pretend?

Keep lying that he's just a friend?

Perhaps your feelings you can never show.

Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.

Your friendship can't be risked over this,

So being his girl is an impossible wish."  <\3

         

"I m BrOkE.....LoVe Me..."

"Wat if one day u wake up n find me no where....?
 U'll try n search me evrywhere....
 Bt what if i'll b gone forever...? 


 No receiving of callz......no reply of msgz..
 Juz disappointments evrywhere....

 Will uhh miss....
 Ma friendship....
 Our relationship....?

 Will uhh miss....
 Ma walk....
 Ma talk....?

 Will uhh miss......
 Dose silly fites....
 D way i behavd az if itz juz ma rite...?

 Will uhh miss.....
 Ma carng...
 Our sharing.....?

 Wat if one day i'll b gone so far...
 A distnce so long which'll alwayz keep us apart.....

 U'll try endlessly to reach to me....
 But thngz wont b same  anymore....memories'll all uhh hav tat too so many.....

 U'll feel helpless n get restless....
 All ur tryng 'll b seem effortless.......

 Slowly n Gradually thngz'll get bck on track...
 Itz juz me evrywhere tat'll alwayz lack....

 Although u'll find me evrywhere....
 In ur mobile...in dose phots....in dose talkz n evn doze blogz...

 But dnt b sad if i leave uhh forevr....
 I'll stay wid uhh...i'll leave uhh never.........

 Widin uhh deep inside iz where i'll reside..
 Feel me evrywhr around uhh.....Even if 1 day i died... "

"Just MIne..."

"Missing uhh iz a part of ma day
 An hour widout uhh iz more den enough to turn me grey....
 I noe wat lyf iz wen i hav uhh
 Coz for me u r too special;one of d few....

 I agree i m gud at irritating,disappointing n annoyng uh
 Bt uh mean 2 meu rellie dnt have a clue......
 Lyk friendship needs sharing n luv needs caring
 I need 2 hav smthng which iz nvr ending.....
 For me uhh r d most precious one
 C'mmon letz break al d rules n juz run......
 To a place where evrthngz perfct
 Where nthngz indirect...
 Where feelingz are pure 'n'
 Ppl are sure.......
 Where luv iz d need 'n'
 Friendship iz d greed...
 A place whr no1 cries
 A place whr u r mine........"juz mine"  <3 <3 <3

Till the tym u r der....

"May b Luvnng uhh might b a crime;
 Bt i want nthng...juz u 2 b mine  ^_^
 May b i m aiming too High;
 May b ma tearz will nvr get dry... :\
 Bt i'll never giv up on luvng uh;
 N may b fr uh itz nthng new.... :P
 I m attachd 2 u frm deep inside ma heart;
 N i promise i'll never let our relation retard....
 Forgettng uhh is smthng which iz beyond compare;
 Ours is smthng xtremely rare.... ;)
 I noe lyf iz not alwayz fair;
 Bt i'll survive till d tym u r der...... "
                                                           

"Ur HeaRt iz Ma HoMe..."

"I will stay awake all night so that you can sleep, dreaming about our love that has been running so deep
i know even in your dreams you always think about me, there are no more words like you or me, it's always "we"...

For the flying birds, the sky is their best friend; for a loving heart, u are everything that god could send,
every second spent with u, is like a day spent in heaven, your the most beautiful of the angels that god has given.

Being with u, i always forget everything happening around, life is always at peace, even if there is lot of sound,
someday if i die, don't ever feel that i have left u alone, i'll always live in ur heart, b'coz "Your Heart Is My Home...."

"I'll nEvEr be wid uhhhh....... "

U made me cry...

U tore me apart...

U left me in tears...

U've shattered my heart...

It wasn't your fault...

I guess it was me...

For love can't be forced...

Perhaps we weren't meant to
be..

It still doesn't help...

Now that i know...

Bcoz for some reason my heart

won't let go....

I've tried more than once to get
over u...

But u make it so hard with cute
things u do...

I thought love was joy...

But i've got nothing to gain..

Just sorrows...tears.......and a

little more pain....

The day the pain started...

Reality came too...

It was the day i realized....

"I Will Never Be With You....."

                                                         

"sOmEoNe...." :)

                                             ITS GOOD 2 HAVE SOMEONE NA....? 




"Someone...To Care..
 Someone...To share..

"Someone....With whom u randomly fite..
 Someone....Who tells u,watz wrong watz rite.."

"Someone....Who'll fite wid uhh juz fr ur sake..
 Someone...Who'll make u realize tat dis world is not alwayz fake.."

"Someone... Who'll undrstand uhh;juz a lil more den u do..
 Someone... Who needs u everytym 'n' u noe u need him too....."

"Someone... Who is concern abt uhh more den himself...
 Someone... Infront of whom u dares 2 b urself.... "

"Someone... When wid uh is more of a freaky monster..
 'n'  Wen u hav sm1 to trouble u;he'll immidietly turns into a gangster..."

"Someone... With whom u talk widout ny reason..
 Someone... With whom itz fun 2 b out in any season..."

"Someone... With whom u love taking random picz...
 and den sitting 2gthr..watchng n making fun of each othr on dose weird clickz...."

ItZ Rellie gud 2 hav Someone.......

Someone..To care..
Someone..To share..
Someone..who promised tat he'll Alwayz b der....  ^_^
                                 
 

"Why......"

My luv for u iz so damn true….
u knew tat I would nvr hurt u……..
now my heart iz crushed n broken in 2…..
I should hav never  fallen in luv wid u….
bt y d hell I still luv u…..??  :( :/